Disconnected

It's been quite awhile since I have written anything here. Even with all that has gone on, I've felt disconnected from so much. I've felt disconnected from both myself and my friends and I'm still not sure why. My husband came home for a two week leave. We had a wonderful time and traveled around quite a bit. It was when he left that all this started.

Unlike the first time he left, I fell into a pretty deep depression. There was no reasonable explanation for it either. Next time my husband comes home, it will be for good so that really is excellent news. My brain should accept that and be happy.
Yet I still have had difficulty getting my chin off the ground and feeling a normal connection with people. Normally I talk a great deal-about important things, unimportant things and rediculous things. Regardless of the subject matter, I do love to talk!
Lately I've felt kind of shut down.

I hope I am able to get to the other side of this "mood" sometime soon. Because right now it seems as if I am invisible, unimportant and living a life which consists of simply pushing from one day to the next.