Nervous Bride?

The time is nearing for my sweet husband to return home for a 2 week leave.
I am so excited but also had an attack of nervousness, much like a bride before her wedding.

I think of how I now look, at age 50. Overweight and a half of a year older than when I saw him last

A little more haggard for having been through this experience.

I hope I look better to him than I do to me.

I wish I had got off of my butt and lost some weight during the last six months.

I wish I had added some more activities to my daily life.

I wish I had kept the house clean and pretty.

That was my original plan
Plans often go awry.
As they did when he got deployed in the first place.

I wonder if things will be the same for us.
I wonder if we have changed a little, a lot or none at all.
Will we have that awesome feeling of comfort with each other.
Or will we need to adjust all over again?
That might not be all bad you know.
Ruts are normal but get old after a time.
Getting out of that 31 year old rut won't be a bad thing.

The good news is, I have no worries about the sex part. None at all

Like riding a bicycle.

Yes, I am nervous and still have awhile to wait.

I hate waiting.

But I want to see him so badly.. there is a physical ache.