Looking Ahead

Looking ahead isn't usually good for me.
I do best emotionally if I stay in today.
When I look ahead too far, I usually end up with the
worst case scenarios rolling around in my mind.
Worry fills my thoughts and anxiety follows.


But staying in today is really hard thing to do.

Plans for tomorrows drive people forward
to do more, faster, better, more efficiently.
Get excited, organized, get well, stay well
Clean house, buy groceries, pay the bills, get gas
Plans to enjoy, succeed or create drive this world.

So staying in today goes against the grain
and it makes it hard to do all of the above
until it's really too late.


When the gas gauge says E..I stayed in today too long. :)
When breakfast is the heel of the loaf of bread, I stayed in today too long
When the floorboards start looking a bit fuzzy, I stayed in today too long.
When the past due notices come rolling in, I stayed in today way too long!
There is only so much staying in today that a person can do and still remain functioning.


At the moment, thoughts of tomorrow
bring thoughts of family.
Sadness too since my mother passed on many years ago.
This year is different. The kids will be out of town or working.
and my husband is in Iraq
Mothers day or not..that's how it is.
alone again
just me and the dogs
So right now, today looks pretty good.

I best not hang around here too long though.