I Don't Get It

I don't get it.
Most of the people I know have so many things to do. Their problem is having the time. And the ones who don't, have noproblems deciding what might be enjoyable

I don't get why the ideas of things to do aren't ready and waiting in my brain for that moment of free time.

I don't get how so many people have a jillion things they like to do and the ones who don't have things that will work ok.

I don't get why looking at a space of free time is much like looking at a blank piece of paper and freezing up when it comes time to write something.

Why is it so hard for me?
I must be really weird or something.

I think maybe it has something to do with starting.
Before I quit, smoking was how I started everything
as well as how I finished everything
and what I did for rest breaks.

You wait for the kids to grow up and think, gosh when they grow up I'll have time to do what I want to do.

Well that time is here.

Peggy